Thankful Thursday

I have had a couple weeks of literally just being blah...I've been trying to pinpoint what it was about, at first, I thought I was just needing to settle down and relax about Jie learning so much, then I thought maybe I need to go to work a couple days per week like I did when Trayj was growing up, then I thought I was just lonely with my husband traveling so much the last 17 months, then my husband came home and I was ready for him to travel again....LOL

Well, I have been reading my bible more and I have been listening as God is speaking to me, it truthfully isn't about any of those things, it's more about the fact that I'm a mom 24 hours per day, giving all I have to others and I have forgotten about myself. I take care of my children, help to keep them healthy, working hard and instilling an education in their little minds and along the way, I have forgotten what it is that I need. Being a mom is and will always be the single most important gift the Lord has blessed me with, but in order to be a good mom to my children, I need to not forget about my needs. Don't get me wrong, i'm not one to never buy myself a new outfit, or never get a pedicure or my hair colored, but those are not the spiritually rejuvenating things that keep my soul strong.

I have many days where I'm keeping the peace between a brother and a sister, making breakfast, lunch and dinner, giving children baths, brushing 3 sets of teeth at least twice per day, saying prayers, reading stories, doing homework with a 7 year old (which by the way is very simple to do), wiping noses, picking up used kleenex, wiping bottoms, washing hands, doing laundry, unloading and loading the dishwasher, cleaning the house top to bottom, oh yes I can't forget feeding and cleaning up after two puppies (one 125 lbs I might add, not a small task to clean up after her) and still managing to get my two showers done each day, get two kids to school, pick two kids up from school, can't forget my time checking my emails and my facebook (which I'm way to addicted to), all the while being a single mom to two kids as my husband was gone over 1/2 the month.....but all of these things are daily events that occur each and every day, and during this time, I didn't manage to forget my blessings, but I forgot how to have fun doing all these things.

I am so happy God has given me the blessing of being able to enjoy all these things with my children and I'm very thankful I have my precious children, I couldn't imagine my life without being a mom. I am so thankful that God reminded me we must enjoy each and every step along the way. God spoke to me very clearly and reminded me that as I'm being a mom, I have to remember to keep my love tank full in order to keep other's tanks full. So my thankful Thursday is all about being thankful for when I'm lost or don't understand things, my Lord Jesus Christ walks me through my darkness, that he knows my direction and he guides me to where he wants me to be. My children deserve the best of me, and so do I.